Love

Kisses of the setting sun 

His kisses were like the setting sun  

Kissing goodbye to the mountain tops 

They left me feeling warm, soft

I melted to his touch  

He kissed me slowly 

Like he wanted to memorize 

Every curve, every ridge of my mouth 

Never rushing, he held me tenderly

The back of my head in his hand 

His fingers scrunched up in my hair

Guiding me, leading me deeper 

A soft nip on my lower lip 

Sent waves of pleasure pulsing through my veins 

He made me feel alive  

Like I could feel not just my heart 

But every part of me, fluttering 

I felt myself move to his rhythm 

I held his face in my hands 

It fit perfectly 

Just the way his lips fit mine 

And that’s how I knew we belonged 

His hand in my hair, mine holding his perfect face. 
– R 

Missing him – LDR part 1. 

There are a lot of things that suck in life, but you know what’s one of the worst, the most horrible thing in life? Long distance relationships. I don’t even know how to begin to describe what I’ve been feeling this past 2 weeks. It’s like my whole world is so incoherent. I’m trying to hold it together, God knows I’m trying so hard but everytime I think if him, I end up sobbing until there are no more tears left. I feel like I’m being a bit over dramatic but I can’t but feel this way, mostly because I feel like I’m already losing him, you know? You know the feeling like when you talk to him over the phone and you just know that even though he’s there, he isn’t really there? Maybe I need to be a little bit more patient, give him time to settle down. I don’t know, honestly, right now I’d give anything just to be able to smell his scent that got me so high. 

I found this paragraph on tumblr, and i don’t have the strength of writing down how much I miss him, but I think this pretty much covers it. 

Holy fucking shit i miss him so much right now, i miss every part of him, everything about him. I miss his smell, i miss playing with his hair, i miss his face, his brown eyes like i’ve never seen before, how they looked like a beautiful shade of honey brown in the sunlight, i miss his hands on my skin, i miss his skin, just being able to cuddle up to him and feel his warmth and how hard his heart beats when we lay together, and feeling his breath on my forehead, and his arms around me as i bury my face in his chest. I miss that fucking jaw dropping smile with the heart melting laugh that follows. I miss his voice that gives me butterflies and never fails to calm me down when I’m upset. I miss him picking on me, and us fake insulting each other and he’ll give me that breath taking fucking smirk. I miss his body language; just the way he is. I miss his beard, I miss running my fingers through his hair, I miss our openness with each other. I miss the way he never wants me to leave. I miss how comforting he is, how caring he is, how protective he is; how he makes me feels as if he’s my guardian angel. I could go on and on about the things i miss about him, but by the time i finish, we’ll already be together again and i won’t have to miss him anymore, and god i can’t wait till the day i never have to miss him again.  

Warmth 

It’s been a while since I saw that smile on your face, 
The one that used to reach your eyes 
And light ’em up like the 4th of July fireworks. 
It seems as though all the reasons why I was the one 
Suddenly become the reasons why now, I wasn’t. 
Even though you were my happiness 
I failed to make myself, yours, 
Though you were my world 
I couldn’t be farther from yours. 
When did the distance become so much?
When did you cringe at the sound of my voice? 
When did it become a chore to call me? 
I tried but I’m sorry baby, to have pushed you this far. 
Some days it seems like you’re better off without me,
Without all the drama I come with, 
But most days, I let myself be selfish 
Because I know that if you leave,
So would all the warmth and safety leave, 
And I’m not ready to live in a cold world without your fire to keep me warm. 
– RiRi

Anger – A poison that kills your soul 

Anger is described as having A strong feeling of annoyance, displeasure, or hostility in the Oxford dictionary. Psychologically, anger is a normal human emotion, and each one of us goes through this emotion every once in a while; in fact at times it is even healthy to get angry, as this shows that you as a person have a limit, a set of boundaries and rules that you don’t expect others to cross. 

But what about the times when anger is unhealthy? 

Unhealthy anger is anger when the emotion of anger is so strong that I clouds your judgement, when the feeling of anger overpowers every other feeling there is within you. 

We’ve heard many instances in life when a person is angry at someone, and they stay angry with them until God forbid something bad happens to that person or when that person dies. It is only after the going away of that person that the person who feels angry, thinks about his actions but by then it’s too late, and then a new emotion takes over; Regret. Both Anger and regret are the worst emotions of a persons life, and slowly they take over one’s life if not controlled. 

When is anger a problem? 
According to the Australian Psychology Society, anger becomes a problem when the following happens:
  • You feel angry a lot of the time.
  • People close to you are worried about your anger.
  • Anger is leading to problems with personal relationships and work.
  • You think you have to get angry to get what you want.
  • Anger seems to get bigger than the event that set it off.
  • Anger lasts for a long time, and well after the triggering event has passed.
  • Anger affects other situations not related to the original event.
  • You are becoming anxious or depressed about your anger.
  • You are using alcohol or other drugs to try to manage your anger.
  • You are getting angry with the people who are closest to you, or with people who are less powerful than you, rather than dealing with the situation that sparked off your anger in the first place. 
All the signs mentioned above are signs that show that one has an anger problem. People have become used to using anger to get what they want, sometimes they use it so much to the extent that their anger becomes bigger than the situation itself, and sometimes the same anger can cloud the love they have for someone else. At times when your anger is out of control, I advice that one takes deep breathes and just concentrates on the reasons how the opposite person has made them happy, and then while revisiting the old memories, one can calm down their anger. 
Another piece of advice is that one should never use anger as a means to emotionally blackmail another person into doing what they want, instead one should use the approach of talking, discussing and compromising. Especially when one is in a relationship, it is crucial that one doesn’t force their rules or opinions on their significant other, instead let them be the person they are because that was the person you fell in love with. 
When one is angry, one often exaggerates the situation and comes to the conclusion that everything and everyone is horrible and that this is the end of the world. When ones mind starts thinking like this, one should quickly tell oneself ‘It’s frustrating, and it’s understandable that I’m upset about it, but it’s not the end of the world and getting angry is not going to fix it’.

Another way is to learn assertive skills, these skills ensure that anger is channelled and expressed in clear and respectful ways. Being assertive means being clear with others about what your needs and wants are, feeling okay about asking for them, but respecting the other person’s needs and concerns as well and being prepared to negotiate. Avoid using words like ‘never’ or ‘always’ (for example, ‘You’re always late!’), as these statements are usually inaccurate, make you feel as though your anger is justified, and don’t leave much possibility for the problem to be solved.

And lastly, don’t let your anger last long, and don’t dwell on a problem once you’ve solved it, by doing this, you’re saving that anger inside of you, and giving it the chance to rest it’s ugly head the next time you get angry. Once a problem is solved, be happy, smile and let go of all that negative energy; breathe deep and smile. 

Missing WordPress

I miss WordPress. I miss blogging. I miss all my lovely, inspiring blogger friends and your posts. But honestly I don’t now where time is flying these days. I barely have time to do anything, with work and studies and shitty assignments. Please help me! I don’t wanna stop blogging…If anybody has any tips on how to manage time and make time for blogging, please, please, PLEASE let me know.

And thanks for the all my new followers and my old followers for liking and following my blog and posts, seriously, you guys keep me motivated and even though I may not post regularly, I am so thankful to have each one of you in my life.

 

Pray for Boston

I want to share my deepest condolences for the victims of the Boston Marathon bombings. What happened was heinous and completely against the morals of humanity. Lets all have a moment of silence for all those who have suffered.

I would also like to remind you all to keep the people of Palestine, Syria, Iraq and Afghanistan in your prayers. Like the victims of Boston, there are people in these places who are dying everyday.

Lets pray for humanity, for peace, for equality, for empathy and for justice.

Moving on

I'm moving on 
Leaving behind the pain and scars 
Making a fresh a new start 
Taking the reins 
Playing the games 
In this world of fame 
I will not forget my aims 
We might meet again 
But I won't be the same
and you'll have lost your chance 
All your efforts will be in vain 
Because now I'm truly moving on

Clinging to Memories

There’s only so many tears

that can fall from my eyes

even they’ve run out

since the last time we said goodbye.

I don’t know where we stand

not knowing is making me mad

your name is the only thing I hear

never knew love could make me so sad.

I’m overwhelmed with darkness

without you, my world is bleak.

Don’t you remember?

Those late night calls and meetings?

Those hugs and kisses?

Those sweet whisperings?

To you did they mean nothing?

I still feel your lips on mine

your breath on my neck.

I wear your clothes

still clinging to memories

not ready to let go.